There were seasons I couldnât get out of bed. Days when even standing up felt like a mountain. Nights I cried quietly so my kids wouldnât hear me â exhausted, scared, and wondering if Iâd ever feel ânormalâ again.
In those moments, my body wasnât the only thing that was weak â my spirit was, too.
But one thing kept me from completely unraveling: my faith.
Not the picture-perfect, always-has-it-together kind. But the raw, messy, âGod, are You still here?â kind.
đď¸ When I Couldnât Show Up for Life, God Still Showed Up for Me
I used to think I had to be strong all the time â as a nurse, a mom, a believer. But chronic illness humbled me. It broke me open in ways I never expected. And in those cracks, God met me.
Not with easy answers. Not with instant healing. But with presence. With peace. With a still, quiet reminder that I wasnât alone.
Sometimes that looked like:
A verse that jumped off the page when I needed it most
A friend who randomly checked in on a hard day
My childâs laughter breaking through the fog of fatigue
A worship song I hadnât heard in years that suddenly hit differently
đŹ Honest Prayers from a Worn-Out Soul
There were no fancy devotionals or perfect quiet times. Just whispered prayers like:
âGod, I donât have the energy today. Can You just sit with me and hear my heart?â
âIâm tired of fighting. Please carry this for a while.â
âI trust You⌠but Iâm struggling to feel You. Help me.â
And somehow, He did.
đą Faith Doesnât Mean Youâre Always Okay
Letâs be clear: trusting God doesnât mean youâll wake up healed tomorrow. It doesnât mean you wonât grieve the life you used to have. And it definitely doesnât mean youâll always feel full of joy.
But it does mean:
You never have to walk this road alone
Your suffering is not wasted
God can use even your weakest moments to speak hope into someone elseâs life
⨠My Faith Helped MeâŚ
Shift from shame to grace when I couldnât keep up
Find purpose in the pain I didnât choose
Remember that my worth isnât tied to my productivity or energy level
Know that even when I was âtoo sickâ to serve, I was still loved and held
đŻď¸ For Anyone Struggling to Hold On Right NowâŚ
If youâre reading this while barely making it through your day â if you feel forgotten, frustrated, or spiritually dry â I see you. Iâve been there. And youâre not less of a believer because youâre burned out or broken.
Let God meet you right where you are. Not where you âshouldâ be. Right there, in your sweatpants and brain fog and quiet tears. Heâs not afraid of your mess. Heâs already in it with you.
You are not your illness. You are not your exhaustion. You are deeply loved by a God who never leaves.
⨠Final Thoughts
If youâre walking through your own âsickest seasonâ right now, I want you to know youâre not alone. Thereâs no shame in struggling. Thereâs no shame in being tired or overwhelmed. And thereâs no shame in leaning on your faith to get through the hard days.
Even when it feels like youâre hanging on by a thread, God is holding you. Heâs not waiting for you to âget it togetherâ before He shows up. Heâs already with you. In the quiet tears, in the pain, and in the hope thatâs still flickering inside of you.
Take it one day at a time, one breath at a time, and let yourself rest in the reminder that you are loved, seen, and never alone. đąđď¸
đŹ Whatâs one way your faith has carried you through a hard season? Iâd love to hear your story in the comments below â you never know who might be encouraged by it.
Blessings,
Shandyđ From TacoboutWellnessđŽ